February 7, 2014

So I didn't post again by the end January like I said I would, but honestly, I didn't get a lot of readers when I was posting about COPD. It's a serious topic, but I guess none of you really care much about it, so I'm moving on from it for now.

A little update on my personal life:
Yesterday was my younger sister's 19th birthday. This is her second birthday that I'm not able to spend with her, as she is still living in Florida. I miss her a lot.
Yesterday was also the start of my weight loss journey.
I stepped on the scale and hated what I saw. Now, I'm not like 300 pounds or anything, but I don't remember being heavier than I am now and I don't like it one bit. So I have decided to actually and finally do something about it. I think my weight is also a reason why my knees and ankles always hurt. Today, I'm going to see a knee doctor about my right knee because it gives me horrible pains anytime I kneel on it, even a little bit. It's frustrating and gets in the way of living my life because I keep forgetting about it until it happens and when that pain shoots through my leg, it makes me not able to move for a few minutes until that pain goes away.

Four days ago, February 3, was the anniversary of my grandmother's death. It has been 3 years and ohh how I miss her and love her. She was one of the best women, one of the most Christianly, kind, caring, loving, sweet, beautiful, amazing, and talented women I have ever know. I want to be more like her, but it's hard for me to be kind to those who just annoy the crap out of me. I don't have her patience. She used to always make quilts, play the piano and accordion, and bake. Ohh how she loved to do each one of those. I used to hate when she would called me, "Livy." I always got mad because that's what my friends called me, not what my grandmother should. But now I would give almost anything to hear her say it again.

The song, "See You Again" by Carrie Underwood is a fantastic song and reminds me sooo much of her and her death. I heard it on the radio as I was coming back from a Jimmy John's delivery yesterday and I started crying. It would also be 3 years from today that the funeral was held. Sooo many people came to it. She was very much loved by everybody she came into contact with. I'm so proud to be the oldest granddaughter of such a fabulous woman. <3