April 15, 2014

So apparently a lot more people like to read my most depressing posts, because that one got a lot of reads...a lot more than any other one.

Well, I'm sorry, but not every post is going to be depressing. It's just a part of my life.
I'm feeling a bit better today after crying so much, sleep, and talking with some of my closest friends about it. I really just have to give this all to God and trust that His plan for me is a lot better than I can ever hope to make myself. It will be on His time and His time only, whether I like it or not. Meantime, I just have to figure out how to squash the anxiety that builds up on the days like that.
Patience is not my forte.

Today is day one with no pop. Usually I would have it by now, but I decided to grab something else. I don't even have pop in my fridge on a regular basis anymore. I actually haven't for a while. It's something I just usually grab at work. I get unlimited pop at Jimmy John's and my favorite, Dr. Pepper, is there. This morning, I actually ate breakfast.

Okay so you may be thinking, big deal.
But it actually is a big deal. I like to sleep in until the last minute possible, wake up, get Kaiden and I ready for school/work, and walk out the door. He gets breakfast at school so he doesn't go without, but I do. If I'm supposed to be working on a better diet, I should eat at the proper times.
It's going to work.
Kaiden and I went food shopping last night and got better food than we usually do.

I'm trying to lose weight and eat better. The biggest hurdle for me will be my diet. I love Dr. Pepper, I crave it when I go a day without it. I like to eat food that is high in calories and not necessarily good for me. But it's so delicious! I just gotta control it in portions and watch what I eat.

I love working out, but hate going alone a lot. Thankfully, I have friends that are signed up at my gym, my sister just signed up, and my brother is allowed to go as my guest. I just gotta get the time to go.

When this year started, I was determined that this year is going to be the best one yet.
I think believe it will.

Until later. <3