April 16, 2014

I had a rough night. I didn't fall asleep until about maybe around midnight or a little after, and had to shut the TV off in order to do so.
I wake up around 4:30 am, and see horrible news and lies being spread about my Pastor. None of this is new to me, I knew it would happen. I pray for his family again and again, for their safety and wellbeing.
Maybe around 6 am, I finally get to falling asleep...just to wake up to the really scary dream.

I was sleeping on my stomach, looking towards the wall, slightly wake up to the sound of the living room TV being clicked on or off, and suddenly I just feel so much pressure weighing down on my back and arms. I was paralyzed and couldn't speak. I tried to yell, "God, Help me!" But I couldn't. I stop struggling for a few minutes and the pressure was released and I sit up and get to yell it, then it happened again. My arms were flown together and held tightly in the air and pressure in my chest to where I couldn't talk again. I strained so hard to yell it and finally get it through, "God, Help me!" And it all ends. Then I wake up in the same position as I was sleeping in at the beginning of that nightmare. I still don't know for sure if it was all in my sleep, or if it was actually real. I do believe that it was a demon that was trying to hurt me.

Eventually I fall asleep again around 7:30ish am. This dream is a little more foggy to me. I can't remember all the details about it. The part I do remember more clearly is this:

Kaiden and I were in this mall type place and there was this elevator. He runs onto it with this woman and I wasn't fast enough to get to him. The doors shut and I'm trying desperately to open them, pressing every button possible on that thing. Finally the doors opened and I thought he would be there, but he wasn't. So I take it up to the next floor and ask everyone I see if they seen this little boy with a red coat. Nobody had and I was crying and freaking out. I see him across the store we were in and I take off running for him and he starts running even farther away from me, laughing because he thought it was a game. I finally catch up to him, he trips and was about to fall head first into this big hole in the floor but I dive and grab him by the back of his coat just in time to save him.

Andddd I wake up.

I didn't like last night and so glad that I don't drive on Wednesday nights anymore, because it would be a long night.

Kaiden has a doctor appointment today in about 2 hours to be tested for diabetes.
I also am going back to the gym with some girls from work, possibly.

So it's going to be a long day.
On the plus side, NHL Playoffs start today! Detroit doesn't play until Friday but that's okay. I'll get my hockey fix after a two day break.

Until later, because I'm sure I will have another post or two today.