I need this

I was talking to my mom about the possibility of me working for subway as a manager tonight and everything she said pointed to,

"I don't think you can do it."

Even though she didn't say those words exactly, I know that's what she meant. She always tries to deter me from trying to be in management. She doesn't seem like she believes in me. And I need her to. I need to her support in this..she's the one helping with my son. 

I don't WANT three jobs forever. This is a great opportunity to help me get and stay on my feet.

She just doesn't think I know what it takes to be a manager. Really. Because she knows everything that I know and think.

I have been in a management position when I was 19, almost 20. I was too young for it and couldn't handle it then. That was 3 years ago. I'm 23 now and have learned so much more since then. I have been placed in situations where I was acting manager, and at the gas station, I'm pretty much just like the assistant manager.

I am also a VERY observant person when it comes to people. I notice the little things that most would overlook. I also watch a lot. I watch our subway manager  do her work at times. I am just interested in how things work and yeah, I'm pretty nosy. I will admit it. 

But when people tell me that there is more to this or that than I think, it instantly angers me. Nobody but God and I know what I think, feel, see, and know.

And right now, I just need support to take a HUGE step in bettering my son's and mine lives. 

Is it so hard for someone to just support me? Nobody else seems to.

Opportunities abound!

So lately I have been stressed with my money situation. About a month and half ago, I had to move out of my friends house and back into my apartment for financial reasons. It's a bitter sweet thing, but I really miss seeing my friend as much and the adult companionship. I've been working on paying off what I owe her and many other people and bills.

I gave up some hours at the gas station to work more for my dad at a better pay, but that didn't work out and I couldn't fully get my old hours at the gas station back. So my paychecks have been significantly less than what it was before.

Because of this, I had decided to find a third, yes THIRD, job.

I applied for a delivery driver job at Jimmy Johns through craigslist and really didn't expect anything to come of it. I don't usually have good luck when it comes to applying for and passing interviews. So I was surprised to get an interview. 

When the interview came, I did less than my best to be quite honest. I thought I was doing poorly, until she noticed my mother'a ring and asked about it. I told her about my son and we went on to converse about how I am a single mother  with no help from his father and that u worked two other jobs and lived on my own.

She seemed to like me and noticed I have a hard working ethic and gave me a menu to study for a quiz to get the job.

I studied for a week and had the quiz this past Tuesday.

I passed with a 97%!

I was offered the job and was given a set schedule that included no weekends and no nights! It also helped get me to where I needed to be to afford all my bills and expenses and paying people off!

Well before this, I had contacted the subway owner of the subways with our gas station company and asked about an opportunity to be a subway manager. She was also my previous District Manager and I had spoken with her about being a gas station manager before and nothing came of it. So I also thought nothing would come from the subway management either.

I was wrong. 

Yesterday, she spoke with my manager and asked what she recommended and the subway manager at the one in our store (she would be training me), told me the subway DM would like me to work a few days at Subway and see how I like it and then if I do, we would talk about Subway Management.

To be honest again, I haven't prayed much about it, and right now I feel I should. I would really like to know which way God would like me to go. 

I feel so blessed to have these opportunities and I feel like things are finally going to start going a little smoother! 

I hope every one has a blessed day and remember to smile!! :)

Make your dreams a reality..

So yes, I pretty much suck at keeping a blog. I always get tired, busy, or just plain forget. I always make these promises about a new post about this at this date and it just never happens. If I still have any readers at this point, I'm sorry for lack of postings!

I will try, and I really mean TRY, to stay on top of these postings. This goes for my Red Wings blog as well.

So years ago, I used to write all these different stories, yet never finished any. And these stories, I thought, were pretty damn good for a middle school and early high school writer. I always had these ideas that came to mind so often that I couldn't just stick to a story at a time.

It came so easy to me because I always based my characters on me and my friends and family, and created these storylines that I honestly wished were true. In just about all of the stories, the main character (based on me) would always have either a big brother or a twin brother.

I have always wanted a brother my age. Sure, I have a brother. He's my baby brother and I wouldn't trade him for any other brother. But, I wish I had someone to "protect" me. Who would beat the crap out of any guy who dared to hurt me. So I always penned myself with one.

Nowadays, I can't write for anything. No ideas just flow to my mind like they used to. My life has changed so much since then, what with having a child. Since I always based my characters around the people in my life, I find it hard to write about a woman with a child and can't bring myself to write one without a child.

I was on my way with my dad to a Red Wings game this past Thursday and was thinking about what I want in my life. What would my dream future be? I have finally figured out what I want to do in a career and what my dream job would be. I want to major in sports management and minor in marketing. Working with the Red a Wings would be my ULTIMATE dream job, though I would be happy just working with any hockey team. 

This is where my story writing comes in. I have finally found a storyline that I could see myself actually finishing with a real ending. 

I could write about my dream future. I could write about doing my dream job working with a hockey team and falling in love with a hockey player who would my son just as much as he would love me. 

Is it far fetched? Maybe. But aren't most dreams out there? It doesn't mean it's impossible. 

Who knows? With all my research about working with a hockey team and other areas if research, it might become a stepping stone to reality. 

Thanks for reading my long rant. Maybe I will be post some excerpts from my story. :)