A New Year.

So a new year is going to begin soon and I want to take a moment to thank God for the blessing to have made it this far. I have heard about many deaths and many tragedies that have happened in the past year and the many people who have not been able to make it to this new year.

Every year, I always make resolutions that I never end up keeping.
This year, I'm going to make goals. Obtainable goals that are not impossible to keep.

My goals include:
-Having a more positive outlook on life.
-Have a better relationship with God.
-Find healthier ways to take out stress and frustrations.
-Go back to school and stay in school to be on the road to the career I want, (Sports Management: Marketing and Public Relations. Focus, hockey. Haha!)
-Spend a lot more time with Kaiden doing fun things.
-Have one full time job instead of three part time jobs.
-Become more organized in all areas of my life.
-Get out of debt.


I'm sure I will end up coming up with more, but there are the more important ones to me.
What are some goals or resolutions have you all come up with if you're someone that does this every year?

I would like to hear!! Send me an email, kraazylovee@yahoo.com.

Hope everyone has a good time tonight whether you are at home with family, out with friends, or out with strangers! Be safe and PLEASE don't drink and drive! Have a great New Year's!!

Happy things!

So I thought of yet another thing to do on this blog, not that the other things I wanted to do have happened thus far (and they will now that I have direct access to a computer!).
I will ask random questions to random people on my facebook and post the questions and answers on here. Why? Because I want to see and show my readers just how people can be so different, yet so alike! I will never post anybody's name on here unless given permission. If there are repeats or differently worded repeats, that's because more than one person said it.

But I'm actually kind of excited for this little project. Just hope it works out!

So the first question I asked is:

What makes you happy?

The answers I have gotten so far (and will continue to edit as more come in):

-Time with family.
-Looking back on the past and realizing where I could have gone and where I am now.
-Seeing how much I have grown in a short period of time.
-Making others proud of me and my accomplishments.
-Never giving up when life got rough.
-Music.
-My family and friends.
-My family and friends.
-When my grandson hugs my neck so tight that I can hardly breathe.
-The thought of her wanting me as much as I want her.
-Knowing that my children and grandson are happy, safe, and healthy.
-My daughter and family.
-My nephews.
-Being around family.
-Video games.
-Given opportunities and chances to change my destiny.
-My kids and best friend.
-Sleeping in.
-My family and friends.
-Raising my kids and watching them grow.
-When I feel the baby kicking my insides.
-My family and friends.
-Knowing bills are taken care of.

-My boyfriend, dogs, and kitten.

-My son and fiancé.

-Having a roof over our heads.

-Having food in our house.

-Knowing my family is there for me.

-Having a job.

-My fiancé raising my son as his own.

-My friends, family, and kids.

-A rainy day at my clean home by myself.

-Salvation and God's promises.

-My nieces and nephews.
-My mom.
-My boyfriend.
-Work.
-Music.
-Sunsets and sunrises.
-Life.
-Friends.
-The future, the thought that one day everything could be beautiful.
-Writing.




Now I will give my answers:
-My son, everything about him.
-God.
-Church.
-Music.
-Detroit Red Wings.
-Hockey.
-Relaxation time.
-Feeling of accomplishment.
-Family and friends.
-Sleep.
-Seeing friends that live far distances that I usually get to see very often.
-That first sip of a fresh Dr. Pepper from the fountain machine.
-Beautiful, breath-taking pictures of nature, also seen in person.
-Sunshine.
-Water of nature (oceans, lakes, rivers, ponds, etc. I swear I should be living on the waterfront.)
-Palm trees.
-Heat. (I don't sound like I should be living in Michigan!)
-Getting comfortable in bed.
-Cuddling.
-Hugs.
-Kisses.

Sooo many things make me happy and I need to remind myself of this every time I feel down!
It may help you, too!
If you fight depression, or feel down in the dumps more than you would like, you could write a list of all the things that you love or makes you happy. Then, look back on that list when you need a reminder. It may help, who knows!

Let me know what you readers think! Feel free to email me at kraazylovee@yahoo.com and let me know any questions, thoughts, or comments on such things that you would to see me talk about! I'm always open for suggestions! :)

Good Morning

Good Morning everyone!

I hope everyone has had a wonderful weekend so far! I am spending some of it about 45 minutes South of me with one of my best friends for her birthday. 

We went ice skating at the Western Michigan University ice skating rink. That was pretty cool because for a while I was on the same ice that Danny DeKeyser from the Red Wings had been on before. Not a big deal to most, but it was to me. 

After that, we went to Steak n Shake where we had the WORST service I had ever had by that restaurant. Thankfully, it wasn't the one that I normally go to, but everything from the start was messed up to the bill. It sucked and we vowed to never go there again. Unfortunately, we did have to go back there because Kaiden had left his blanket there and we didn't know until bedtime.

After eating, we went bowling and all of us had so much fun.

We came back to Laura's boyfriends house where Rob's daughter, Rowan, and Kaiden were playing very well. They are so cute together. 

We watched movies and pretty much passed out around 2 am. 

When I get home today, it's cleaning time and hopefully a nap!! :)

Hope everyone's day goes splendidly. :)

What do you do?

What do you do when you have reached your limit with everything?

Today has certainly been one of those days where so much crap has been slowly (or quickly) building up to the point where you just SNAP at whoever is the closest to you?
That has happened to me today and although I am very sorry to the person who I snapped at, I'm just at my end with everything.

I'm trying to make things work for everybody...everybody but myself. And that's what's wrong here.
I need to look after ME too. My son and I come first.

I hope everybody else understands, and the ones that love me and actually want the best for me will understand. And I'm so blessed to know who most of them are.

What I do when I have reached my limit is cry. Cry and yell at people.
Then I listen to music, something upbeat that I can sing at the top of my lungs to.
And vent to someone who doesn't interrupt.

Then I am calm.

It's a certain cycle and I absolutely hate when I have to go through it.

But what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, right?

Christmas Part 2.

WOOOOOOT!!!

This post is not being written from my phone, but from my new computer!!
Spoiled? Yes. But it won't last much longer. That's quite okay. But for now...I am having a WONDERFUL Christmas and I hope that everyone else is as well! :)

I got many things that I wanted and then some.
NHL 14 Xbox 360 game.
Laptop.
Vacuum.
Picture Frame.
Scrapbooking Album.
GPS.
Darren McCarty autographed book!
Red Wings garden gnome.
Socks.
Cookbook.
Red Wings book.
A collection of Red Wings games.

I love each and every one of them. :)

My parents, who usually don't get much except from each other, also had a very good Christmas.

There were screams and tears, mostly from my sister and I. All in a good way.

We all got things that we weren't expecting, and that's really a fun time. If you know what you are getting, where's the fun in that?

So now that I have a computer at my readily access, lack of postings will be inexcusable.
Hope you all have a wonderful day with family and the ones you love!

<3

Christmas part 1.

Merry Christmas, everyone! :)

It is officially Christmas day and like ALWAYS, I'm awake in the early hours. I really don't try to, but my body never lets me sleep in on this day. I'm not even that excited for the day. Well, sorta. I pretty know what I'm getting because I accidentally saw my list with what's crossed off and such. So I do know that this may be my last post done on my phone! :)

And that I may be busy on my xbox, playing the 360 game of NHL 14. 

I am pretty spoiled on Christmas, I will admit. 

It will only last for so long, and seriously it doesn't matter much to me anymore on what I get. I usually end up buying whatever I want eventually, haha.

I'm starting a new tradition this year and so far it seems to have gone well. My brother and sister have both stayed over night last night and they and my son have unwrapped the presents that I had bought for them. Then we went to eat dinner at Applebee's and made cookies to decorate in the morning. We would like to continue this tradition with our families when we are older and married with kids. I think it shall be fun.

Christmas, however, is definitely NOT about presents. It's about celebrating the birth of Jesus and what it meant to the world that night MANY, MANY years ago! He is the reason for the season. I forgot about the church service last night until my dad told me he went. I'm not used to being a member of a church around Christmas time, so it really slipped my mind.

Well, I'm off to take some meds and sleeping pill so I can get some rest this early morning. 

I will post again today!

I hope every has a blessed day and a very Merry Christmas!

Updates and a look back on 2013.

Hey everyone!
I know, like always, it's been a little while since my last blog post. And, as always, I have been just a tad busy. I am happy to say that I have been working for Jimmy Johns for 4 weeks now and I am finally loving it! I wasn't so sure at first, because to be honest, I don't like being the new person who knows nothing! I was literally scared of the phones because I didn't feel like I knew the menu well enough to be able to take the phone orders and would do whatever I could to avoid them. Nobody showed me how to prep my deliveries either. The in-shoppers always did it so I didn't really know. But, I have finally gotten a hang of how things work around there. Even on Monday, I just grabbed a phone when it rang and, for bragging rights, I did AMAZING! My manager was happy. On Tuesday, I grabbed the first phone call and when I hung up, another phone rang, then again, then again, and it was to the point where my manager had to tell me to stay away from the phones! Haha, and she also gave me a compliment and said that she'd been listening to me on the phones and that I totally rock. :)
So I am comfortable there now and finally got out of my shyness a bit and starting to ask questions without feeling stupid.

Although things are going well with Jimmy Johns, I am still going to try for Subway management through the company I work for at the gas station. I had talked with the Subway owner and the District Manager of our Subways and we are going to have me try a couple of days at Subway and see how I like it. If I do, we will proceed on with a formal interview and figure things out and hopefully continue on to training for management. I am very excited and feel like I am at the right place this time with management wants. I am not doing it just for the money anymore like I was before.

So 2013 has been an interesting year I would have to say. Although it's not over yet, I'd like to take a little look on the year so far and point out the most significant events to me.

- Kaiden turned 4 years old and not really a toddler anymore.
- Kaiden started PRESCHOOL!
- TWO of my best friends got engaged and married this year! A congratulations to Chrissy and Dave Southern (8-3-13), and Stephanie and AJ Parks (12-13-13). :) I love you guys!!!
- Another one of my best friends got engaged. Taylor!
- An adorable baby cousin was born on my late grandmother's birthday and shares the same name as my son. :) My cousin's name is Kaiden Scot Roest and was born on 7-30-2013. He is such a precious little boy and I adore him so!

I mean, these events were the most important ones for me. They may be insignificant to others or others may not hold such events as these that happen to their friends or family as important as I do. But I love my friends and family and am very happy when such events happen for them!

Well, it's back to work for me. Hopefully soon I will have a computer so I can update more often, the app on my phone is kind of hard to work with.

If I don't post again before Christmas, I wish everyone a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! :)

Stop the torture

Lately I am being tortured.

Not physically.

More mentally and emotionally.

By my dreams.

Weird, right?

Well to start off, I had done a post probably a couple of months ago about feeling left out when it comes to relationships and love. And to be very honest, I had not been very focused on the subject for a while. 

Then the dreams started.

I call them the "Boyfriend dreams."

In each dream each night, I have a boyfriend. He's not the same guy or anything, but just the fact that each night I have this boyfriend figure just annoys me.

Then a couple nights ago, the worst one happened.

See, I have never been in love with a significant other. Just lust and what not.

But this dream, I was sooo unbelievably happy and in love. I still felt it when I woke up and it made my heart hurt.

When I talk about the dream, it even right now, I start to tear up because now I know what I am missing and it literally hurts me to have that void. 

And last night, yet another boyfriend dream.

One of my best friends thinks it's a sign of yet to come. If so, great, happen already! If not, then stop the emotional torture already and STOP!

Hopefully tonight I don't have one. Or at least don't remember it.