Not sure

When I see people with their significant other... It makes me want to have my own boyfriend. And I do want to get married one day. But just the whole thought of getting to know someone and going through that awkward first part really scares me.

I may want a boyfriend...but I'm not desperate. I won't take the first guy to give me a compliment or say hi. It takes something special for me to connect with them. I need that connection.

I'm not a toy.

I'm not here to be used.

So I build up walls. And only the guy meant for me will be able to tear them completely down. 

I apparently have to wait...something I HATE doing. 

But need to do nonetheless. 

With that tidbit of thought..

Good Night for me!